Sunday, September 28, 2008

i miss taiwan

on a boring sunday afternoon, i actually thought of .. TAIWAN..

yea.. the island up there. i somehow miss the place. probably the mid terms are here and i can't feel so sian to study for it, that's why i thought of that place that's relaxing.

i particularly miss the secret garden restaurant located at the yang ming shan. it is really out of no where. the place is so serene. i felt so peaceful and relax to dine there. 

not sure is just the place.. or the whole holiday.

ok.. i shall get back to my studies. ( trying my best still)


Saturday, September 20, 2008

freaking pissed

my neighbors were talking about getting your palm read by the master at NUS bazaar a couple of days ago. they saying how accurate the master is and blah blah.. and so i got pretty interested in it and decided to get mine read the next day when me and my friends dropped by at the bazaar.

and i didn't know this is the start of me getting freaking pissed. i am not pissed by what the master said to me but i am pissed by what my friend said after that.

you see.. i am getting my palms read. so whatever the master said to me is actually quite private. i had my 3 friends standing around and i don't mind them listening cos i expect them to keep it to themselves. but, one idiot surprised me. i shall named as X. X basically broadcast the details to the rest of the clique who isn't present at the palm reading session.

well, first of all, i am not a celebrity. so why should i become your pre-dinner conversation topic!?! freaking hell. by asking you not to go away when i was getting my palm read shows that i respect you as a friend and certainly don't expect you to talk about the details!
 
you can comment on me.. like saying on how stupid or naive to spend my 20 bucks on getting my palms read and stuff like that. well, that isn't nice but it is BETTER than u telling people about the details! if i want the rest to know, i will say it! not you! who are you to represent me! u r not even my girlfriend!

before, you think i am petty. well i am not! petty means (of behavior) characterized by an undue concern for trivial matters, esp. in a small-minded or spiteful way.  note the word 'trivial', to me this isn't trivial matter cos it is my private matter. who take private matter as trivial?!? who like people telling the others about your details. can you imagine one day you tell me only about your weight and i go tell the whole clique about ur damn weight! will you be freaking pissed by me? if you won't, then tell me your weight and ur vital measurements... see what i will do lei.

anyway if you are in my shoes and you don't mind me telling people about everything, then it is still your freaking matter. i MIND people like you telling others about my details. the moment you called me to join u guys in the conservation, i should have smell something fishy. but well, cos i trust u not to do anything that is foolish. 

sometimes i just wonder why u can't keep bloody mouth shut! and use freaking brain to think before you say. i won't mind you commenting about me in front of others but i mind you reporting me in front of others. and i don't care what u freakingly usually do or what other frens practice. cos this is my stuff and it is about me!

and you seem so 'proud' to have done it. and you freaking pissed me further cos of what you said to me

" so what you told everyone about it?" i asked

" no. everyone expect *****." you smiled as if you have achieved a world record of spreading the news in the fastest time.

i don't know what u r damn stupid or damn innocent.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

one step at a time

i keep telling myself.. 

one step at a time

dont think too far

dont think too much

one step at a time

and soon you will reach ur destination.



Monday, September 15, 2008

substance against popularity

this scenario struck my mind last weekend.

it is the scenario of a popular person against one who is not so popular but believes to have more qualities than the other

can popularity really win the votes? if a person is popular but lacking in the substance that is required to take up the leadership position, then is he still qualified to do so? people who probably don't understand the situation will naturally assume that he can do the job. people who do understand the situation will probably think qualities triumph over popularity.

apparently, people tends to look at popularity and ignore the fact about substance. popularity can get you the human relationship that one wants but may not get the job done in the end. 

looking at it from the econ pt of view, i believe the marginal benefit of choosing popularity over substance is lesser than that of choosing substance.

but well, it is hard to stop a popular person from getting what he wants. probably in today's world popularity plays a larger factor than having substance.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

the power of love

how much will u give up for the one that u really love? ur joy and the meaning of self existence?

how long are you willing to wait for that person? even if you know it will pointless wait?

if there really ever lasting love? or does that only occurs when you are madly in love?

what is love exactly?

is it really about joy and tears?

is it really about sacrificing? 

love, it is so powerful and yet so frightening.