a blank mind

i come here to write when my mind is blank. i can't believe i have been just playing bejeweled for the past couple hours. it sucks knowing that you have no moves left and yet u know you can do much more.

it sucks knowing that you won't be appreciated in the way you want it to be. i guess i brought this upon myself.

i want to go back to the past and treasure every single moment again.

God has given me courage to speak. I guess he has to give the courage to face the truth and challenge it now.

surprising good boxing day

i spent the boxing days with my JC days and it was surprisingly good. despite me only know half of the people there, i enjoy the 'party' somehow. it was nice seeing them around after almost two years. i guess i just love crowd and a simple party.

i lay down on my bed and started to wonder why i didn't treasure the past and why did i screw up the present. is any chance left?

may God bless me with strength and courage ...

xmas week

xmas was bad this year. i didn't get to spend it the way i want it to be. i made huge mistakes which are probably irreversible. xmas sucks this year and now it is back to the wall.

i have so much to say and i just need a chance to do so.

may god bless me with the strength, wisdom and luck.

dilemma

sometimes we know how things will turn up to be like right at the start, but we continue to walk the same path. we will pray that there is an alley somewhere or some miracles will happen. however as we walk closer and closer, we know that we will hit the wall and yet we often walk straight. we will probably regret only after we feel the pain from hitting the wall.

this is life isn't it? knowing the consequences and preparing to bear the consequences.

knowing how to tell people what to do but not knowing what to do when u r in the scenario .

miracles

i used to believe that i can create miracles. but now, i don't. i am an easily defeated person who doesn't believe in miracles anymore.

no more exams!

exams are finally done. perhaps i m done again.

i was still thinking that i was too easily contented. perhaps there is a 'worse to come' scenario waiting for me soon.

anyway, i went onto the road trip traveling from west to east yesterday with my art friends last night. from farm mart to marina barrage, to town and then geylang. finally wrapped up by sending everyone home. it was a new experience with them.. had lots of fun taking photos and talking cock..

it had a long time since spending time with them. hope everyone can put aside the differences and remain as a clique as it used to be. =) let's keep life simple.

happy.

i m happy.

back to exams.. i think i screwed up today's papers. but i think i really tried my best, ok.. i tried at least.

beside exams, i m happy. i m easily contented.

God, continue to bless me with strength, courage and patience.

my fault

i think it is my fault. i blame myself for everything.

should have treasured things.

God, please show me the way and continue to bless me.

keeping focus

i guess i m too easily contended yesterday.

i must keep my focus and patience.

urgh.. sigh...

focus.

God, please continue to bless me with strength, courage and show me the way.

sunday

i seem to forget how i spend sundays at home. this is the 4th weekend in hall..

anw.. i still slightly happier today and i wonder whether i am too easily contended.

God, please continue to show me the way and bless me with the strength and courage.

unlucky

outwitted, out played.

no luck, no fate.

for every chance i create, i will face a new wall.

still believe in being patient. God shows me the way.

tired

i am so mentally and physically drained.

God, please help me. Show me the way.

red card day.

initially it was like getting a 2 minute suspension.. then now it is now like getting a red card.

first paper

i had my first paper today. totally drained out by the paper. i still believe that this was the hardest of the 3 NM papers i had this sem. i hope for a perfect paper in which i know every single question. but that dream still evades me. i had around 10 questions left pondering. not sure whether will hit the target i set down for it eventually.

coming up next is JS paper on thurs. another interesting module with a hard paper to meet. i had a disappointing term paper, hope the finals won't be so disappointed. but for now.. i need a night of break.. cant really focus on the history of Japan.

thinking

you set me thinking for the night.

jaded

i am so jaded that sleep can't retrieve me. i need something else.

i hate wet toilets

wet toilets are damn disgusting. can't believe i cant find a dry one in biz.

peer review

so much about saying giving each other equal marks and in the end someone just have to backstab us.

why is my marks lower than others? i was being called on with less 48 hours to cover for someone else and i did my part without complaining. i put aside my revision and rush the project. i spent 6 hours with the rest discussing the project on a sat afternoon when a member went MIA!!! fucking hell. the lecturer shld know this man!!!

in the end, my work wasn't being appreciated and worse still, i got penalized.

i waited 3 hours for the last meeting to start and someone just went home and did a video conferencing with us. i shld just have just gone back to hall and did a skype too!!! fuck!!! i was there as much as possible. i raise up doubts about the part that i was ordered to do saying that they are not continuous variables and u fucking hell.. asking me to continue and in the end turn them into dummy variables. i submit my work on time and try my best in helping the rest. so why was i being penalized? it all boils down to playing this game of survivor series isn't it?

damn.. cos of this stupid peer evaluation, i was even further behind the mean score. i have nothing to lose.. n i will seriously consider bring this issue up to the lecturer!!!

for the another project which doesn't have peer evaluation, i worked my life out and no body cared. the school should have one standard way of evaluating projects!!! what's the point of me working so hard for one and doing normally for the other and in the end, other people benefit??

fuck them!

crossroad

sometimes we just end up at the crossroads and not sure of which direction to go next. going straight will give you more misery, turning left maybe a dead end and turning right could be risky.

being left in the mid, lost and helpless.

adium

recently i have been using adium for messenger instead of the usual msn messenger. it seems to have less errors and seems cuter than the previous messenger.

but still i hope msn can come out with an exact mac version for msn messenger.

when they are gone.

you only treasure those moments when u no longer can have them anymore.

and you only realize how much you miss them when they come haunting you back..

environment do change, so do we.

treasuring every single moment of now and then

martin kelly ?

i realize i didn't blog for almost a month. almost forget how my blog looks like..

anyway, some random comments again.

i saw the soccernet headline.. saying that 'Gerrard injury blow for Liverpool'. follow by ...

Liverpool skipper Steven Gerrard, midfielder Albert Riera and defenders Martin Kelly and Martin Skrtel will all miss Wednesday's decisive Champions League match in Lyon.

who the hell is martin kelly? when did he become such a important feature that he gonna be mentioned along with gerrard, riera and skrtel who are first team players, that he is injured. i always thought that he is upcoming youngster who yet to secure a place in the first team unless benetiz wanna start him this mid week against lyon. as far as i m concerned, i think since he is injured, we just open up another slot for another youngster on the bench and hopefully that's the case.

Dishearten Liverpool fan.

SUNIG

the SUNIG chapter finally came to a close yesterday when i collected the medals, team NUS polo tees and the wind breaker. It had not been an easy time especially co-ordinating among all the halls and all the difficulties that had been posed since June.

i still remember the first meeting that we had at the starbucks at the raffles city shopping centre and the numerous failures of trying to conduct a constructive wednesday session during the holidays. luckily when sch reopened, things got slightly better. better turn up, more commitment.

one of the greatest prob posed was the IVP cap thing. a problem that i had raised up at the first meeting didn't have a solution all the way till one week b4 the first match. and yes, our team is also officially formed one week b4 the first match.

even when the tournament got under way, things weren't even smooth. the first match, i received a call at 12 pm to ask me to submit the team sheet that had slipped off my mind. at 3 pm, SRC called again to tell me a jersey was burnt ( printing errors and requested new jersey from me) and i had to rush down to get one. the 2nd match, i received calls 24 hrs b4 the match that 2 players were out. on the last one, our glue and drinks got stolen before the very minute of our match.

but still, we still hang on and deliver the expectations. it was a relief.

i do agree that it was very heart breaking for a couple of players who didnt make it due to injuries and other reasons. but hopefully, they do enjoy coming together to play. anyway, i really appreciate great from people like thong meng, bobby and martin etc. really learn from them quite alot.

i gotta say i still got alot to learn. but finally for now, i can sit back n just focus on IHG.

touching story

This a Greek short film made in 2007 Father and son are sitting on a bench. Suddenly a sparrow lands across them.

stepping up as pub cell ic

i am gonna step up as pub cell ic for smb this coming year... some asked why ? since this may be my last year in hall. but i love challenge. i so gonna take up this challenege. i don't believe that i can't deliver a successful publicity campaign for the IHG with resources that i have along with such a wonderful co-ic, cass.

some idiots question my credibilty for stepping up, claming that i m not up to it and wasting spaces etc...

they are idiots and can't really think i guess. let me clear their doubts n enlighten them..

firstly, they claim that i have never done publicity b4 so i shouldn't be a i/c.

what nonsense is thaT? that doesn't work in hall. previously, i have never done marketing b4 and i step up as rag marketing i/c. the results are there and there shouldn't be any doubts. there are quite a few leaders around in the hall who have no prior experience in that particular area b4 they took up their leadership posts... they done well. they are far too many examples around. i think this is a bad claim.

2nd, they claim that i m wasting a space for freshies in my blk to enter SMB.

so now you are playing with seniority ? so a senior can't enter a new after his freshie yeaR? i am not the only one around doing so k?moreover, if a senior can contribute more to the comm than a freshie, why not take him? bias n bullshit. thinking use the ass again.

enough is said. i shall not let the one who approached me for the post down.

random quotes

“You don't love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not” jodi picoult

hammie

one of the rare few pics showing hammie biting a piece of nut instead of my hand

hearts

a heart figure found that day when clearing up the comm hall after rag.

rag

4 more days.. i wonder how it is going to turn up to be like...

i hope we win ..

11 days and counting.. w/o a neighbor.

evian commericals

i prefer the 2nd one.. more funny.

i come close to H1N1

it must be on that day which MOH minster announced that 53 percent of flu cases are h1n1 cases that i got a flu.

i was quite scare initially. 53 percent... it is just flipping a coin. head u win, tail u lose situation. well, so as a responsible citizen, i quickly took a half day and head home to rest. i was feeling alittle feverish that night while i was resting.. ( i always feel feverish when i got a flu, i used to think that it was part of flu bug.) so i thought perhaps i m that unlucky..

but luckily panadol cold pills are my super heros at the end of the day. 2 pills and a good night sleep and i am fighting fit once again. but that means i have to go back work again.. sigh

damn those reckless cyclists~!

when i started driving, i hate motorcyclists the most as i always have to look out for and give way to motor bikes. but now, i have a new enemy on the road. they are the cyclists...

nowadays, i can see that the number of cyclists on the road has increased and do my hatred for them. i have nothing against those properly geared and respect the traffic rules. i hate those will think that they are the biggest thing on the road.

these most fragile transport pays no respect to other vehicles.

speeding across zebra crossing, traffic lights, refusal to give ways to other vehicles, taking one whole lane, slow speed, no helmets..

one whole list of endless dangers they bring to the road users...

and because they are the most fragile on the road, drivers like me have to pay attention to their reckless acts to prevent ourselves for hurting them.. or damaging our cars!

the authorites should really impose heavy punishments on these rules breakers... it would be a matter of time a serious accident involving bicycles happen.

counting down to its death

there used to be a patch of small little forest in front of my house, but recently it gave way to some new construction of hosuing blocks. the constructor firm brought down all the trees except one within days.

that sole tall tree stood in the middle of the bald land. if u are smart enough, you would have guessed that it was a durian tree. it is the durian season now and it was bearing quite a lot of durians. all of us would realize that probably the contractor was keeping it to reap the fruits. deep down inside me, i was praying that this tree would be preserved and left untouched. how many durians are left in SG?

so it stood there for weeks... one morning on the way to the bus stop, i realized the tree was gone. the land was really bald and being occupied by heavy machines. so the emotional side of me took over for a while, imagine u r the tree.. and you are counting down to your death.. you know once your amazing moment is over ( which will be bearing fruits), your life will be over. people would reap from your hard work and probably no one will remember you in the future.

this could be just be any of our lives.. we live for the moment and we could be gone for the next.

optimistic

let's not look at what is gone. let's look at what's left..

be optimistic...

get ur address right!

i am surprised by the number of people who can't get their address right.

should which one should come first ? the block ? or the unit number? or the name of the condo?

well, i believe this shld be the correct order.

the block, street name, unit number and follow by name of apartment. lastly it shld be the postal code.

i am amused by some examples of how some people wrote their address..

one classic example:

blk 161- 02#223

so does that person lives on 223rd level? i believe he meant #02-223.

i am amused daily by the mistakes people made in writing address. trust me.. some of them live in landed properties and condos and they can't get it right as well.

my dead phone

i am quite assured that my phone is dead. it keep restarting on its own. i figured it out that it could be a software issue which costs a bomb to fix it. i guess it is time for a new one.

with it becoming part of history, it may signify a change in my life as well. so far, every phone i had has a story behind it. the memory that it stores shall be eternal. no one knows what it is. i guess it will be a secret b/w me n the phone.

rest in peace.. my beloved e65.

lovely sunday...

it is such a nice sunday. it has been quite some time since i stay home and slack for the whole sunday. i managed to catch up on sleep by waking past noon time and then i spent my whole in my room, using my mac and staring out of the window. nice chilly weather after a small little downpour. lovely sunday. i wish for everyday to be like this.

work work..

i began work this week at panasonic as admin assistant. basically it is just a data entry job which means any dummy also can do it. i never fail to fall asleep after lunch while i was keying in the data. the data is endless.

i find it real hard to motivate myself. maybe i could tell myself that i should hit the unrealistic target that my boss set for me. so everyday, i look forward to lunch and then knock off while i dread the morning.

sigh.. one month of work.. no choice.

!!!

back from army.. heading str into work!

it was reservist time for me last week. one of the longest week for me so far. when it comes to army time, not matter how slack or short the training is, i would never find it bearable at all. no internet, no facebook, no computer games and no msn. how can i actually survive a week without these things? it sound like going through some survivor series. it would be three times the shit next time. good luck to me.

anyway, there was this particular joke that happened in camp last week. we were walking the medical centre and we saw this sign that read ' enterance'. all of us burst out laughing. the english that army use at times is real bad. we ain't asking for outstanding english but at least get the basics right. we walked past the centre daily and that sign for there all the time. i wonder whether any officers point out to the medical team about their bad english.

adding onto to the joke, the apperance of the medical centre look rather rundown. it gave me the feeling of those deserted places that we see in the zombies movies. come on guys, we are 3rd gen army! hahaha..

today

i am glad things went fine today.

i was on time for rag presentation in the morning.

managed to turn up for tuition.

meeting with sponsor went fine.

managed to collect the tapes

and finally managed to go to mel's hse for BBQ.

=)

long day

tmr is gonna be a long day. got to be in sch by 10 am for video presentation.

then i need to rush to tuition by 1130 am..

afternoon meeting with sponsors at 230 at raffles place.

then got to reach kallang b4 5 pm to collect stuff.

finally coming back school to hand over the collected stuff.

it is a traveling day.

bugis cinema

i managed to catch terminator with kris at the bugis shaw cinema today. I haven  been to a Shaw cinema for ages. it really reminds me of some retro cinema. from the person whom collect the tickets from me to the theatre itself.

i am rather fine with that uncle wearing an old white uniform. i was quite taken back by the conditions of the cinema. the cinema was real dark even before the show starts. we could barely find our rows and seats. then it got a stench as well. the seats were rather low so we were glad that no one else bought the seats in front of us. or else we wont be able to get a clear view.

anw.. terminator was kinda normal. not much of a twist.. a real normal movie.. haha.. 

penang trip

traveling is not just about seeing things, it is about meeting people.

initially, i thought of writing it in day to day format, but i guess it was way too long winded. so i end up writing different headings.

the journey

we were forced to take a bus there. 9 hours of sitting.. it sounds quite terrible isn't it ? we slept through it and by the time we opened our eyes, we were at penang, looking at the sea and the barely lit penang island.

the bus terminal

food

penang food is fabulous. it was really love at first taste with the local delights. from its penang laska to the muslim indian style nasi padang, every single dish tastes different and some even better than SG food. i am already missing penang food.. 

the gurney drive is a must go place in penang at night! they serve really nice food at night. needless to say, i can't forget the fresh coconut served in the local way and the famous roadside chendol. 

we also caught up on food that were already missing in SG. haha.. i am talking about the A & W and friday's. 

tourist spots

beside eating, we went to several famous tourists spots in penang. we had been to the biggest temple in malaysia which is Kek LoK Si, the biggest spice garden in SEA, boring botanic garden, night market, fish spas, massage and the beautiful beach. 

the sea activities are limited. the operators are out to hammer u for your money! they reduced from 100 + RM for parasailing to 100 RM for parasailing + banana boat. but in the end, we just tried the banana boat.

expects to see lots of tortoises in this temple. i won't be surprised if its nick is the tortoises farm.

cher's screams made this whole butterfly farm trip seems the most lively and fun.

the fish spa is only 15 RM for half an hour. lucky fishes got to eat supper.

Shopping

we satisfied our shopping carvings in KL! we spent close to 500 RM each in less than 6 hours. there wasn't any sales but somehow i was still being tempted to spend. i am feeling damn sinful guilty... haha..

unlucky last day

my bag was spoilt in the morning. as i was desperately looking for one, i bought another new bag at a relatively high price. then the flight back home got delayed and by the i stepped home, it was close to 8 pm. 

amazing stuff

firstly, we met at jojo and her bf at the rest point during the bus journey there. amazing.. they were heading towards rendang. it was such a small small world! secondly, i gwen surprised us by appearing at  door step. we didn't expect her to drop by as she didn't know our hotel room number. guess she was smart enough to contact KK.

friendly people!!

KK and i gwen are really really very friendly and nice!!! i can't believe they spent 2 entire days with us. showing us around their beautiful island and going with us to tourist spots. KK still fought with us to pay the bills for the meals. penangnites are really nice pple!!

Pre Penang Trip

if i m not wrong, this is how it got started. chermaine confirmed with me that we are going penang on wednesday (13th may) that we would be leaving for penang on 18th. the initial plan was kk would be our guide and jessie would join us. she dropped them a msg and i started planning the trip.

for the next few days, kk didnt reply at all. isa and jessie pulled out. we panic for a while, it seems like the trip would be cancelled somehow. on friday night, in despair, I mentioned this trip to i gwen n she somehow managed to get me .. kk's sister number. amazing. on sat morning, i managed to get kk on the line. the trip was back on track.

on sunday, we settled all the hotel booking, purchase of bus and air tixs.. 

and that how an amazing trip get started in an amazing way.

i m back

i m back from malaysia..

wonderful 5 days.. gonna blog abt it soon.

anw, i was walking past a construction just now at 9 plus. i saw a group of workers rushing some work. they were some boundaries for the site under no light at such a late time... haha.. remind me of last time in the army, the soldiers rushing to finish up work in the outfield under no light conditions as well.. haha

just a random thought

one last shot of my messy table b4 i moved out.

yet another year filled with beautiful memories.

upset

i m sure upset with myself.

upset with econs

10th module ... not a single A yet and there goes my hons...

damn sian.

it just started on the wrong n end up walking a wrong path.

no joy on the last day. sigh!

another funny video

spiderman in central lib

i wonder whether this spiderman is the same as the one who appeared in our night cycling ... hahah

as i m studying in cen lib tonight,i can't help it to hope that he will appear again. ..

nus money leech

i found my matric card...

so i thought i dont need to pay 16 bucks

but in the end i end up paying for the usage of temp hall card which costs me 10 bucks

no wonder ppl wanna climb window la.. freaking 10 bucks for 3.5 days of usage. i shldn't have applied for it la...

nUs money leech !!!!

i love my new wallet

i got my new kenneth cole wallet a couple of wks ago.. love that brown texture n the leathery smell. so much better than my previous black wallet..

gonna take good care of it..

i wanted to post a pic but realise it was just a plain brown wallet..

webcasts

i fell asleep while watching webcasts!

my goosh.. still got 5 hrs to go...

simple thing

the simplest thing could be the hardest..

the thrill

the thrill of curry lies its surprising pungency and spiciness
the thrill of life lies in its unforeable twists and turns...

DnD

dance uncensored

finally got the pics from dance uncensored concert which was held last sunday. =)

falling in love with.. laska

almost finished laska from arts

i had the strong craving to eat laska recently. today ate the 3rd blow in 2 weeks. i used to hate it..

but dont know why there is such a strong craving recently.

i still prefer the katong laska..

yummy.

NUS teaching staff are not helping students at all!

it is regarding international econs..

i approached my tutor with my solution n she did agree that it worth more than zero. however she couldn't do anything.

the lecturer can't do anything cos she marked the qn. she can't do anything cos the lecturer had the paper.

NUS econ staff are shit.. seriously...

for the first time, i got an ans right but they refused to give me any marks.

this is so disturbing

international economics

i went to take review my paper last week cos i still can't believe i did that badly for the exam.

i did well for half of the paper. probably that's explain why my marks are half only. for one of the question which stated the distribution of income..

i explain the way the textbook did so. exactly the same graph, exactly the same idea. and guess what i got?

zero.

well, the lecturer agreed that my idea was correct but somehow it was not the one that he is looking for. he agreed that zero is too harsh and since that question was not marked by him, he couldn't do much. he then tried to console by saying that a couple of marks won't matter.

screw him la.. if i m at the top, i will agree. but i m at the bottom now. na bei...

what's up with nus staff nowadays.. ? i am still sure that my ans is correct n deserve half of the marks. maybe it is time to look for my tutor.

hall boy

damn! i woke up late n submitted my report late.. luckily my group mate saved my ass. knowing that i didnt reply his sms, he submitted one copy just b4 the noon time.

thanks dude!

i finally got my curtain washed, vacuum my floor and wiped the ceiling fan. whoosh...

a saturday in hall isn't that bad after all.. provided it is not just for studying =)

DnD

DnD was finally over last night. seeing my neighbour working so hard for it, i m glad for him. he is still like a walking dead this afternoon.

seriously, this year DnD is not that successful. ( i m kind with my words) i m sure there are plenty of ppl out there agreeing with me.

from transport to food to the price of the tickets, nothing is right.

i am kinda convinced that the i/c of dnd can't cope with such a large scale event. last year, when she was in charge of another major event, she screwed up the transport as well. but credits to her, she got the event done after all and the prizes from lucky draw were good. ( which made me even more pissed! why can't give me the shuffle for my lucky draw then!)

anw i hope to get my pics soon from cher ..

=)

my new matric card

i love my new matric card.
the bar code is so perfect.
not a single scratch at all.


it is at its best now...


and i wonder how long will that last...

dying dried flower

if you have become part of my life till i m afraid to lose you , is that called dependence or love? definitely worth a thought..

p.s : not referring to myself or anyone... just caught this quote from the perfect cut 2... 

my birthday gifts

when u guys read this post, i m sure u all know that i m still sore abt what happen 2 months ago.

haha...

ok...

time for items check..

- piggy lamp ( on loan @ chermaine)
- bear seat rest ( suppose to be on loan @ chermaine, but she passed to andee! biased!, if andee is gonna fart on it, most likely he will, i am not going to accept it anymore. i will hold u responsible.. chermaine!.. haha...)
- bear 'rubbish' bin ( yet to find a use for it)
- care bear ( quietly sitting on my shelf)

hmm.. i m missing an item..

o .. bear speaker ( on loan @ chermaine!)

item check done!

if items that are damaged on loan, u guys can pay me back another item of the same value. no similiar item will be accepted. of cos, i hope they will be returned in good condition. afterall they are the gifts from u guys =)

from the annoying guy who can't forget the past n move on.

monday blues

annoy..

I was annoyed that I woke up late and had to rush to class. The LT was freezing cold and I couldn’t fall asleep. by the time I fell asleep, the lecture was done. I was irked that I couldn’t finish lunch b4 the lecture start. the undone matric card vexed me further. the reference book that i couldn't find in the lib added onto my frustration.

happy...
I was happy that to see the pretty girl in NM1101 lecture again. I was contented that I got the lunch that I wanted. I was happy once more to see the pretty girl (another) in the transport lecture. the pretty girl sitting down at the counter of IT care who was wearing a low cut, lighted up my day. lastly, i was glad that the librarians were friendly and helpful in assisting me with my search for the books.

every thing has its two sides.. just like my monday blues...

RAG RAFFLE and how unprofessional JCRC member can be

first of all, i will like to thanks everyone for supporting rag raffle this time. it has exceeded our target. =)

to my marketing team, u guys have done very well. good job. to val, you had tried very hard and gave ur very best to the team.

anyway, val had a busy week fighting with DnD comm for some prizes that ought to be ours. the issue was unable to settle before the draw date and we missed out on a big prize which could reward the Shearites for supporting us.

I have been pushing Val to sort out that issue cos i really want to repay the support that the ppl had given us by offering them a big prize. so as we tried hard to get things, some key figures just don't play their roles. I am pissed totally about what had happened.

Since there was a conflict for the prizes, they turned to someone who is charge of the comms. he is one of the JCRC guys. so val went down to his room to discuss about the issue on the eve of the draw date, still hoping to get the best for the ppl who support rag.

well, guess what he was doing when Val turned up for that meeting?

he was DOTA-ing! yes.. throughout the whole hour that val was talking to him, he was dota-ing. he wasn't concentrating on what val was saying. she had to repeat several times and tried to drive across what she wanted to say.

the hall gave him so much points and yet he was so unprofessional when come to dealing with matters. still worse, he just can't get the whole picture. the reason why we are so desperate to sort this matter is cos we wanna get it before the lucky draw. and yet he said he shall settle on monday. duh!!!

he is really fucked up!

he was the guy who mentioned wanna make sheares hall into rag hall but yet he can't even do his little for the comm by sorting out that urgent issue. is dota more impt than rag at this moment?

he can't get his priorities right. in my opinion, he makes JCRC a laughing stock.

totally disappointed.

i wonder what JCRC shall come up with a system that punish members who fail to do their duties well.

damn the ulcer

i am so much looking forward to eat the whole chicken today..

but the ulcer struck me..

damn the ulcer

good TM?

what is a good TM?

does a good TM means that he has to turn up for every single training?

i don't think so. if i have a handball training that clash with the volleyball training, which should i go to? 

i was the handball vice-captain. it was my responsibility to go to the training and assist the captain in training. on the other hand, as a volleyball TM, i should go to the volleyball training and stand and watch the training, help to pick the balls which is basically to assist as well.

so if you are me, what will you do?

and by the way, i still had badminton training to commit to as well. ( ok.. i didn't go for alot fo training, because it clashed with handball) with these 2 sports commitments, i have never skip any volleyball training b4 just because i wanna slack.

SO TO THE PERSON WHO HAS NEVER BEEN A TM OR CAPTAIN B4: FUCK OFF!!! YOU HAVE NO IDEAS OF THINGS AT ALL!!!!

WHAT YOU HAD SEEN WAS JUST YOUR ONE SIDED STORY. YOU HAVE NO IDEAS OF WHAT'S HAPPENING BEHIND THE SCENE. SO FUCK OFF!!!!

SO TM OF THE TEAM SHOULD HAVE A 100 PERCENT ATTENDANCE RECORD?!?

FUCK OFF

IF YOU THINK YOU ARE GOOD, COME BE ONE NX YEAR. 

my definition of a good TM:

• assist the volleyball captain in gathering a team for training.
  
• provide basic welfare such as 100 plus for ALL training.
  
• ensure that the TEAM MORALE is there and won't affect the game play
  
• make sure everyone is as happy as possible to be in the team
• ensure that no other external factors can affect the team chances of winning the gold medal
  
• be there for the team and the capt as much as possible
  
• try ur very best for the team
• fight for the rights for the team

so i truly don't deserve to be called a slacking TM cos i know i have put in the best effort for the team. just because i am not there at some training, it doesn't mean i am not good!

FINALLY, FUCK THE PERSON WHO SAID I AM NOT A GOOD ONE THIS YEAR.

P.S : thanks to those who have put in a good word for me.

 

the blooming season

the trees outside sheares hall and kent ridge were in bloom last week. it was a beautiful sight as one could see the trees blooming with flowers from a far distance. however, as the flowers grew older day by day, their best would soon be dwindle in the past.

i walked past the trees after a late morning shower today. indeed, the past was already here. the flowers were falling onto the ground. the once beautiful flowers on the crown of the trees were scattered everywhere. they continued to form a magnificent scene for everyone even in the last stage of their bloom.

and i wonder when will it stir us the most? when the flowers bloom or when the flowers fall..

when flowers fall, no one will grieve for them and probably when flowers bloom, no one is there to enjoy them. is there anyone ever slow their pace to enjoy these flowers along this road. if their purpose is to bloom for us to admire, then it will be a sad ending for them...

better than sudoku

i came across this game called ken-ken. haha.. the name is kinda interesting n cute.

anw, it is like sudoku but it involves more maths. i read that it had been out in US for quite some time but it doesn't seem to reach SG yet..

here is where u can try it ...

http://www.kenken.com/index.html

have fun!

blowing hot n cold

i think the someone up is throwing a tantrum, blowing hot n cold these days..

it was so cold last night that i caught a cold.. n it was so hot today that i can't study in my room...

wadsup with the weather...

endless love

haha.. my lecturer showed me this video during lect today. it is kinda funny. that guy really did a good job of lip reading. i just love the bush expression

Teen's dying wish for Cameron Diaz blow job not granted

after reading this article, Teen's dying wish for Cameron Diaz blow job not granted, not sure, whether to say Americans are really nuts or what. i understand that the teen is dying, but i think it is really impossible to get a superstar to give him a blowjob.

the superstar will be crazy to do so... haha.. maybe if the teen's last wish is michael jackson giving him one instead, probably still stands a chance.

crazy americans parents..

check this video out

Shaq, LeBron, Dwight Howard All-Star Dance-Off

can't believe this 2.2 m tall guy, weighting 147 kg can dance so well..

ghim moh food market

in order to be a good boy today, i decided that i would wake up at 630 am to accompany my parents to ghim moh food market to buy the famous pipa roast duck that everyone loves in my family. somehow this unexpected trip triggered off my memory cells and got them working.

the moment my dad turned in from the main road. the whole scene just reenacted for me.. this was the market that i would walk past on the way to the mrt station whenever i sent my first ex to her aunties place. little did i realize then that this was the roast duck market as well till today...

my mum brought me to the chwee kueh stall and claimed that that is the best. the second scene came rushing into my mind once again.. years later.. ( probably a couple from the previous), this was the first breakfast place that i woke up as early as 7 plus to accompany my 2nd ex to come her to eat breakfast. i rmb the chwee kueh that she likes and are also the ones that my parents do this morning only

i finally discovered the above links and find that ghim moh food market actually has a significant meaning for me only now.. my fav. roast duck stall plus all the things that happened here with other girls in my life. well it is better than never. so an unexpected roast duck trip, which i didn't manage to buy it cos the stall was closed, ended up in me linking pieces of my life together. who knows the story of ghim moh food centre may not just stop here for me...

intrusion of privacy

i just attended my NM lecture on intrusion of privacy and realized that there is an obvious breach of privacy in the block!

haha...

the blockhead does send out a detailed contact list at the start of each semster so that people can do keep in contact with each other. however, the problem is ... the contact list is too well detailed! one of the unnecessary details i realized is the inclusion of matric card number. as every single student in NUS has a number for himself (yes.. very much like a prisoner), this number can do wonders.. 2 scenarios below depicts some of the useful functions of matric card no...

stealing matric number to check the exam results...
this doesn't occur too often but there is alwauys sombody out there who are too concerned with their fellow block mates' academic results and will resort to such methods to 'help' check results (sometimes mid term results are released in PDF format). isn't this an obvious case of intrusion of privacy ?

that fellow should really face the walls and repent.. haha...

i shall continue in the next entry...

slumdog millionaire

i managed to catch slumdog millionaire over the weekend. the movie is yet to release in SG so u guys can probably have a good guess on how i catch that movie.

the movie is about an 18 yr old, jamal from the slums of Mumbai finds himself competing on the game show "Who Wants to Be a Millionaire," where the questions he must answer offer a look back at his earlier life. it also showcase the unseen side of India.. the slums, the racial discrimation.. the poverty side..

there is one part i can hardly forget after the movie.. when jamal was a little boy, he was forced to jump into a shit pit in order to get Amitabh Bachchan's autograph. the scene was kinda of comical. that's little boy was real cute! haha..

since it was meant to be an indian movie, the director included one extra dance scene right at the end of the movie. (there wasn't any throughout the movie) a total indian classic..

it is a great movie. u guys should really catch it. truly deserves the nomination for oscar best motion...

doesn't matter at all

i realized that it doesn't what you do anymore as long as...

i know i am not in the wrong..

and what you are behaving in an immature and childish way..

moving on real fine and without any bother from the past.

celebration

we had our handball + andee's birthday celebration last friday @ o bar...

it was really a crazy night out. i was drunk. knocked out completely!

that was twice in a row. but seriously, it was fun to be knocked out knowing that ur good friends will ensure u a safe trip back to hall.. haha.. i won't mind making it 3 times in a row

anw.. like i hope it turned up to be, it was a real great night. hope we will have plenty of these crazy fun to come SOON!

gold at last

we finally won the gold at last...
the past 1 sem of hard training and all the efforts are fruitfully rewarded last night
good job guys

=)

what can u do with 100 million?

100 million! this is the figure all the soccer fans should be familiar with. man city trying to buy kaka for 100 million!

what is 100 millions? ( in case anyone can't appreciate figures)
- 8 zeros
- worth a handful of penthouses @ sentosa cove
- 100 tanks for sg army
- thousands of students' education fees till uni
- lifetime worth of bubble tea
- allows 50 thousands students to stay in hall for a sem ( provided hall fees stayed @ 2 k per sem)
- allows me to stay and rot like nothing before

and that wasteful man city actually waste it on a player who probably can't ensure them of a title lo... even if kaka brings them the title, the title doesn't worth a 100 million!

even in soccer sense, 100 million can easily buy at least 5 good players and they probably will help them to win some silverware in the long run.

i seriously doubt man city can do wonders with money. they can't be the second Chelsea.. no way for this season at least.

anyway, i did the calculation in sing dolllars.. the 100 million shld be in sterling..

gonna dream of 100 million tonight

handball!

i am so happy that sheares finished off as the group leader by beating TH last Friday. the defence in the first half was good.

i am happy to get some playing time too. i finally scored the first goal .. and continued to assist the team by earning a penalty. it wasn't a dive k! the guy really touched me. lol... 2 chances were given to me.. one goal and one assist!

i admit i did a bad job in defencing that day. i shouldn't have gotten that stupid 2 mins.. unncessary foul trouble.

ok.. here is the report from leon on SH website..

http://www.sheares.nus.edu.sg/sports0809/?p=1047#more-1047

my birthday

it all started on the very first few hours of my 23rd year of life... the moment i stepped out of my room to brush teeth. they quickly entered my room and set up everything..

well.. 5 bears items were the presents + 1 discus look alike brownie cake.

the items are rather cute n creative but... i don't really like bears.. lol. i dont know why they got the impressions that i do. but still.. it is the thoughts that count. haha... can hardly forget how excited they were when explaining my presents. somehow, i think they hope that i give them back the presents. ( well the speaker is alr on loan to cher, who wants the bin? )

later in the afternoon, i decided to go out with my fren. cos that fren was late, i had to eat lunch alone =(.. a sad lonely birthday lunch. well in the end, managed to catch a random gay movie called ' milk'... the actors look so similar to the real pple. good acting by sean penn. she got me a mini birthday cake from rive after i randomly chose one. the cake was unique n nice of cos. haha.. a random afternoon ending up in enjoying good stuff.

there was JTS in hall @ night, so i got back hall. haha.. as excepted, i got ponded... not that bad. dinesh walked to me and said ' we are going to pond u now, pls don't struggle'.. one of the more friendly ponding session i have experienced.

just when i thought the whole session is over, i received a call @ 2am from val. she insisted on meeting me to pass me a very impt proposal as instructed by sean bai. so reluctantly, i took the lift back to my room and calling sean bai to verify the report. sensing something was wrong the moment the lift opened and i saw val immediately, i tried to close the door but it was jammed alr.. haha.. i got ambushed again. sean bai tried to strip me .. haha.. didn't know my rag ic wants me so much.

anw.. it was a pleasant nice.. lots of thanks to those invovled last night. thanks lots for the present as well. it is v nice n practical.. =) u guys are the best.

thoughts come true...

my thoughts come true..

hmm..

not exactly good thoughts..

hmm..

birthday wish

i was speaking to my this long time friend (she insisted on banning the word 'old') on the phone on the very last hour of my 22nd year of life. somehow it is always nice to talk to her again. she mentioned about new year resolution and birthday wishes...

and so..

i was thinking am i suppose to wish for something that it won't happen or something that may have a chance to happen. what's the point of wishing for something u know it will happen? but on the other hand, since u know it won't happen, then what's the point of wishing for? haha.. am i contradicting myself?

i am not those kind of people into the idea of new year resolution or birthday wishes, i forgot mine last year. however it is always to have one...

therefore...

i wish to be a better man in the new year ( cum birthday wish) =)

new sem bad start

i m like 80 percent done with my lectures this week, left with international econ on thurs. the modules that i m taking this sem seem pretty hard at the moment, esp the one with the french lecturer teaching. this sem is a do-or-die for me, i don't know how i should get things started but hopefully things will fall into their places for me soon.

anyway, i don't understand how i can miss out a fact that everyone is taking BSP module except for me. the only time i heard them saying it was at laska shop. i remember clearly nothing was confirmed, no one expresed keen interest except for HH. on the first day of bidding, i still bother to sms someone whom i didn't know is ( yes! it is still 'is') awkward with me to ask abt that module... and somehow i end up not knowing anything about it...

then ... a week later, some kind soul decided to tell me that everyone is taking BSP! this is some unethical way to kick me out of a common module just because some awkward pple is taking it? or somehow it is just so conincidence that i m left out? my fault? if this is some consipracy, then i don't deserve such treatment...

screw this whole thing seriously... tell me str what is happening

btw i do really wanna take BSP, but cos in order to prevent someone from thinking too much, i went ahead to take reporting stats which i have no idea what it is abt..

thanks ar... doesn't pay to be a good guy

sheares handball

glad that shandball overcome KE tonight.. no match is an easy one at this point of time. i managed to get playing time but kinda disappointed not to get any goals for the team. i can't forget the shot that hit the bar.

anyway, sincerely hope yong shen from KE is alright. he banged his cheekbone into the back of my head and end up receiving sitches for it during. that incident took place in less than a minute from the moment i stepped on. not a very good start.. i had to continue playing despite still feeling a little shaky ( i could ask for a sub but obviously i will prefer playing) haha.. i think this could be first bloody scene in the whole competition.

ok.. here is the report that leon wrote for us...

http://www.sheares.nus.edu.sg/sports0809/?p=946#more-946