freaking pissed

my neighbors were talking about getting your palm read by the master at NUS bazaar a couple of days ago. they saying how accurate the master is and blah blah.. and so i got pretty interested in it and decided to get mine read the next day when me and my friends dropped by at the bazaar.

and i didn't know this is the start of me getting freaking pissed. i am not pissed by what the master said to me but i am pissed by what my friend said after that.

you see.. i am getting my palms read. so whatever the master said to me is actually quite private. i had my 3 friends standing around and i don't mind them listening cos i expect them to keep it to themselves. but, one idiot surprised me. i shall named as X. X basically broadcast the details to the rest of the clique who isn't present at the palm reading session.

well, first of all, i am not a celebrity. so why should i become your pre-dinner conversation topic!?! freaking hell. by asking you not to go away when i was getting my palm read shows that i respect you as a friend and certainly don't expect you to talk about the details!

 

you can comment on me.. like saying on how stupid or naive to spend my 20 bucks on getting my palms read and stuff like that. well, that isn't nice but it is BETTER than u telling people about the details! if i want the rest to know, i will say it! not you! who are you to represent me! u r not even my girlfriend!

before, you think i am petty. well i am not! petty means (of behavior) characterized by an undue concern for trivial matters, esp. in a small-minded or spiteful way.  note the word 'trivial', to me this isn't trivial matter cos it is my private matter. who take private matter as trivial?!? who like people telling the others about your details. can you imagine one day you tell me only about your weight and i go tell the whole clique about ur damn weight! will you be freaking pissed by me? if you won't, then tell me your weight and ur vital measurements... see what i will do lei.

anyway if you are in my shoes and you don't mind me telling people about everything, then it is still your freaking matter. i MIND people like you telling others about my details. the moment you called me to join u guys in the conservation, i should have smell something fishy. but well, cos i trust u not to do anything that is foolish. 

sometimes i just wonder why u can't keep bloody mouth shut! and use freaking brain to think before you say. i won't mind you commenting about me in front of others but i mind you reporting me in front of others. and i don't care what u freakingly usually do or what other frens practice. cos this is my stuff and it is about me!

and you seem so 'proud' to have done it. and you freaking pissed me further cos of what you said to me

" so what you told everyone about it?" i asked

" no. everyone expect *****." you smiled as if you have achieved a world record of spreading the news in the fastest time.

i don't know what u r damn stupid or damn innocent.

one step at a time

i keep telling myself.. 

one step at a time

dont think too far

dont think too much

one step at a time

and soon you will reach ur destination.

substance against popularity

this scenario struck my mind last weekend.

it is the scenario of a popular person against one who is not so popular but believes to have more qualities than the other

can popularity really win the votes? if a person is popular but lacking in the substance that is required to take up the leadership position, then is he still qualified to do so? people who probably don't understand the situation will naturally assume that he can do the job. people who do understand the situation will probably think qualities triumph over popularity.

apparently, people tends to look at popularity and ignore the fact about substance. popularity can get you the human relationship that one wants but may not get the job done in the end. 

looking at it from the econ pt of view, i believe the marginal benefit of choosing popularity over substance is lesser than that of choosing substance.

but well, it is hard to stop a popular person from getting what he wants. probably in today's world popularity plays a larger factor than having substance.

the power of love

how much will u give up for the one that u really love? ur joy and the meaning of self existence?

how long are you willing to wait for that person? even if you know it will pointless wait?

if there really ever lasting love? or does that only occurs when you are madly in love?

what is love exactly?

is it really about joy and tears?

is it really about sacrificing? 

love, it is so powerful and yet so frightening.

thoughts

i know what i want and they are within my reach. impossible is really nothing. i believe in myself and my strengths. if i can't get what i want now, then it will be a matter of time that i can get it. 

and i don't play second fiddle to anyone.

back to writing

i finally decided to write again. recently too many things had happened in my life and i really needed the time to think. i know what i want already.

the route again is tough. i gonna change to see to the challenges ahead. changes are the only constant thing in my life now. i need to be stronger or else i will be a forgotten man...

hall life

hall life is good right now. it is better than last year. i enjoy staying in my handball corner on my level. today as i prepared for tomorrow inter block games, i heard that there is a new freshie already who is playing my position. he has got the handling and shooting right and the potential to go far. i have not seen him in action but he is surely a threat right now. i am kinda sad that i will not be able to start tmr game due to the IHG caps.. i am just looking forward to start a match. hope the day will come soon.

food eating competition

i saw 2 remarks on a large scale food eating competition in the papers a couple of days ago. Singapore is going to host a large scale food eating competition. cool isn't it ? however the two remarks that i had read called this competition a tasteless stunt.

"at a time when the world is being stalked by the twin spectres of obesity on one hand and food riots on the other, i was absolutely appalled to learn that SG is to play host to a competitive eating contest." William Laws as written in his entry in Life! he was even calling the authorities to BAN it immediately

o.. come on, yet another writer kicking a big fuss again. i can't believe he used the words 'appalled' and 'ban' . can u sense his shocking feelings upon knowing the competition. 

it is just a food eating competition. how much food will we waste just for the novelty value of this competition. i doubt by banning it, we will actually encourage pple not to waste food. drop by at steam boat buffet restaurant on a wkend, see how much food have we wasted. i think those wastage can be enough for a eating competition. i think Mr Laws should spend more effort on educating his kids, nephews, frens' kids... blah blah not to waste food rather than pinning his hope that the authorities will ban it.  

ok.. there is another writer who said that 'let's not encourage undesirable habits particularly at a time when money is hard to come by and food is scarce'. haha.. i can't imagine there is a person whom after watching the competition will go to the hawker centre and order  20 bowls of noodles and try to finish them with 20 mins..

since both wanna care much for the Earth and Singapore, i suggest that they look at the F1 race that we gonna hold in the coming month. how much resources are we going to waste? at a time when the world is stalked by high petrol prices due to shortage, are we gonna to waste more by using them on 20 race cars to go round and round the city for the thrill and entertainment purposes?

are we going to say that cos the F1 going to bring in millions and worldwide coverage for the nation, so all the wastage of resources are worth it? hmm... and cos food eating competition doesn't bring in much money for us and will 'waste food', so we shld ban it ?

come on, i rarely see a domestic eating competition or a race in singapore. despite of the depleting resources that we have left in the world, i think Singapore shld hold them