a blank mind

i come here to write when my mind is blank. i can't believe i have been just playing bejeweled for the past couple hours. it sucks knowing that you have no moves left and yet u know you can do much more.

it sucks knowing that you won't be appreciated in the way you want it to be. i guess i brought this upon myself.

i want to go back to the past and treasure every single moment again.

God has given me courage to speak. I guess he has to give the courage to face the truth and challenge it now.

surprising good boxing day

i spent the boxing days with my JC days and it was surprisingly good. despite me only know half of the people there, i enjoy the 'party' somehow. it was nice seeing them around after almost two years. i guess i just love crowd and a simple party.

i lay down on my bed and started to wonder why i didn't treasure the past and why did i screw up the present. is any chance left?

may God bless me with strength and courage ...

xmas week

xmas was bad this year. i didn't get to spend it the way i want it to be. i made huge mistakes which are probably irreversible. xmas sucks this year and now it is back to the wall.

i have so much to say and i just need a chance to do so.

may god bless me with the strength, wisdom and luck.

dilemma

sometimes we know how things will turn up to be like right at the start, but we continue to walk the same path. we will pray that there is an alley somewhere or some miracles will happen. however as we walk closer and closer, we know that we will hit the wall and yet we often walk straight. we will probably regret only after we feel the pain from hitting the wall.

this is life isn't it? knowing the consequences and preparing to bear the consequences.

knowing how to tell people what to do but not knowing what to do when u r in the scenario .

miracles

i used to believe that i can create miracles. but now, i don't. i am an easily defeated person who doesn't believe in miracles anymore.

no more exams!

exams are finally done. perhaps i m done again.

i was still thinking that i was too easily contented. perhaps there is a 'worse to come' scenario waiting for me soon.

anyway, i went onto the road trip traveling from west to east yesterday with my art friends last night. from farm mart to marina barrage, to town and then geylang. finally wrapped up by sending everyone home. it was a new experience with them.. had lots of fun taking photos and talking cock..

it had a long time since spending time with them. hope everyone can put aside the differences and remain as a clique as it used to be. =) let's keep life simple.

happy.

i m happy.

back to exams.. i think i screwed up today's papers. but i think i really tried my best, ok.. i tried at least.

beside exams, i m happy. i m easily contented.

God, continue to bless me with strength, courage and patience.

my fault

i think it is my fault. i blame myself for everything.

should have treasured things.

God, please show me the way and continue to bless me.